"you’re so mean"
“you’re so nasty”

yeah horrible me for not wanting to speak to the boyfriend that’s ashamed of me

forgive me, I’m just so fucked up in the head

"It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on."
— Nicholas Sparks (via quotethat)


sometimes i just get upset because im not the person i want to be and i think about my future and it clouds my head with negative thoughts about how im not going to be important


just need to cut


I don’t particularly understand why
But somehow the words in my head have so much trouble
Making their way to my lips, as they fumble the entire way there.
And I envy my friends
That can sit there and honestly say what they’re feeling
“I’m overwhelmingly depressed right now.”
“I just need some time to myself.”
“I miss our relationship so much.”

I care for my friends, I do.
And I trust them and I know I can talk to them about anything but
For whatever reason,
I don’t.

I can’t so blatantly tell anyone how I’m feeling
Or what runs through my head sometimes
Or of the awful things I tell myself
And it’s frustrating because I don’t want to be like this,
I want to learn how to open up
I want to know how to entrust the toils that fill my heart to someone else
I want to be able to share my burden
To be able to actually accept help,
To take someone’s hand and say “I’m not okay”
And not have to apologize for just saying
Exactly what is on my mind.

But the thing is, that’s what I’ve done my entire life.
I’ve kept so much private,
So many fears hidden so as to not worry anyone
So many scars unseen for every time
I wished I hadn’t chosen
To live like this.

I don’t want to do this alone.

I can’t.


I’m just sorry I do this to myself— I’m trying to learn I swear, r.r.
"For years, mental health professionals taught people that they could be psychologically healthy without social support, that “unless you love yourself, no one else will love you.”… The truth is you cannot love yourself unless you have been loved and are loved. The capacity to love cannot be built in isolation."
— Bruce D. Perry, M.D., Ph.D., “The Boy Who Was Raised As A Dog” (via cunicular)


"You should not
have to rip yourself
into pieces to keep
others whole."

i am seeing less and less of you, Emma Bleker (via stolenwine)
"Stop planting flowers in peoples yards who aren’t going to water them."

Anonymous (via seedy)

i like this because it doesn’t complicate with why the flowers weren’t watered, they weren’t and that’s what matters

(via iamsmallcat)